Friday, October 2

Do you ever feel like you're not doing enough?

Hey guys, I suppose the title says it all for today's blog post. Perhaps it's just another one of those days where I feel extra useless and talentless but I've been having a lot of these thoughts lately. First of all, I've been back in the UK for a couple of weeks now. Third year classes starts next week so yay for that. I feel like I've taken enough time off of blogging and am looking forward to being busy again. This past summer has made me feel somewhat sad even though I have loved my absence from blogging. I actually really enjoyed appreciating every moment and just living in it but that has made me feel utterly useless. Like I'm not doing enough. Like I'm not doing more than I think I should. And today is just one of those extra stupid days where I feel even worse.

Honestly, I'm so scared about finishing uni. I don't feel like I can be an actual, working adult. I don't wanna grow up. I see everyone struggling so badly and that scares me. It's not like I don't know what I want to do but it's more like.. I am super scared of even trying. And on another note, my motion sickness has been pretty bad these few days. It doesn't help with my emotional state because I just feel so bad but I'm trying. The boyfriend has been great lately. Like OMG he made me the best bacon and cheese sandwich when I wasn't feeling great. I love you.

Oh freshers week has been okay - I feel too old sometimes - but okay. I went out a couple of times and it was pretty cool. Silent disco was the bomb.

Yeah, I totally didn't get the monochrome memo. I suppose I match Reiss's hair color?

Here's another.


I've been missing home a lot this time. I just can't stop missing the little twins and all the Asian food. I teared up over a drone-filmed video of Hong Kong the other day. The boyfriend called me cute but I was actually homesick and feeling a little shitty. I mean, the video was spectacular. Hong Kong is just so amazingly beautiful. Here's the video that made me cry:

It's really cold right now and I'm eating M&Ms, rewatching the video above. Aaaaaand I feel shittier. Again.

I just can't shake this feeling *referring to title*.

Okay, I'm heading back to watching The Voice. Till next time guys.


  1. Aww, first of all what you are feeling now is pretty normal, dear. Believe me you're not the only who feels that way and maybe there are others who are feeling a whole lot worse. Yes, being a working adult is hard. I just went through my first year of being a working adult btw and yes, I'm still struggling. There are so many things that needs to be done and I even feel like I have very little time with me. You know the rent, work and stuff,all of them are soo stressful and sometimes shitty lol. I even find myself wishing I could go back in school. The only advice I can give to you now is to keep the faith and live the moment. Enjoy the good times but do what you have to do as a student and success will be on your way.
    I hope you are not bored with my long comment hahaha
    WIshing you all the best btw :)

    love lots,

    1. aw thank you. I needed to hear that from someone else other than my boyfriend haha. I guess I'm just really nervous because I'll be graduating very soon and all of my worries will be smacking me in the face. thank you tho!

  2. So there are days , but do not panic and let things flow and have to flow. I've spent any time for any similar situation where I feel inuti but not so quiet and enjoys every moment , if you return to the blog stresses and relax do not do it when you're ready again !.
    Regards dear

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  4. Sometimes I feel this way too, you're not alone. Sometimes I find peace with myself, and I enjoy quality time just doing what I like and not going out. You don't have to be doing a lot to be happy, just do what you like dear. <3

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  5. I feel the same way, I'm applying to colleges now and I feel that I don't have a good enough application to get me in anywhere. I've been looking back at my high school experience and realizing what I could have done to make my grades better, etc. I just keep telling myself everything happens for a reason and that I just need to be happy. Don't stress yourself out, just work hard and have fun <33

  6. Very nice pics! Great blog!
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  7. Very nice pics! Great blog!
    Would you like to support each other by following each other´s blog! Kiss 💋

  8. I feel like no matter what we do, we never feel like we're doing enough. It's in those moments of free time at home when we wonder what our purpose is. We could be relaxing, but sometimes it's so hard to relax.

    The Life of Little Me

  9. Oh... I can totally understand you! But be aware that the motion sickness is not good for your emotional state, and the emotional state then makes the body bad. So it's a cycle, you have to change it somehow, maybe through meditation... It's normal to feel this way when you are far from family, though you have a lovely boyfriend. But then family, the ones who raised you up and would always be there for you, these ones are far away, and of course you feel homesick! It's also normal to feel a bit or a lot scared because of life after university... and it means you are aware that a new chapter will start... after the first "shock", you will enjoy it. I have some friends who finished university many years ago, aged 30 now, and still live a teen life and want that, forever. So be very sure that it's normal what you are feeling and I hope you feel better soon! Wishing you a very nice weekend!

    1. hahaha i know a couple of friends that i know for sure won't change a thing, partying their life away. thank you though!

  10. I'm sure you're not the only one who feels scared, it's completely normal. STAY STRONG! You'll do great things.

    xoxo, ♥

  11. Absolutely enjoyed reading your post <3 will definitely come back to read your next post! Kisses Ashon

  12. This is normal dear! I feel the same sometimes!

  13. Altho sometimes I feel this way too, but I've always wanted to grow up quickly & get into the workforce. Hahaha! Nice shots, dear! xoxo

  14. great post
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  15. Great blog!

  16. Oh very cute pics darling
    And I hope you feel better in upcoming days

  17. I definitely feel like that sometimes... I guess we just have to do our best and after a certain point just stop obsessing about things.

    Bella Pummarola

  18. Great Hong Kong video :)

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  20. I can absolutely, 100% relate to this. Since childhood, I never wanted to grow up and getting closer to adulthood is terrifying. I just finished uni and I'm studying to prepare for the American Law School Admissions Test; but in the meantime, I feel like I could be doing more. I could go on all day about why I feel like this, but I'll spare your comment section. Perhaps I'll write a blog post on it.

    Just know that whether you're doing a lot or a little, what matters most is doing the absolute best that you can. I'll remind myself, too.

    Best wishes.

  21. Think of it as just a phase, hopefully you'll feel better soon, and kudos to your BF for being so supportive.
    The Hong Kong video is amazing, thanks for sharing.
    Have a great weekend!
    Xoxo, Victoria

  22. great!
    have a nice weekend!

  23. It's completely natural to feel this way; there are so many people in this world feeling the exact someone and believe me when I say it gets better. I hope you find your foot in this, Annick, good luck. <3

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  24. There's a book I just recently finished reading that you might find really helpful! It's called The Happiness Trap by Dr Russ Harris, it goes into the reason we don't feel good enough... back in the caveman days there were certain things we needed for survival and that we feared not being good enough and rejected from our tribe because if we were we were more like to get killed. It also goes into learning to accept our thoughts for what they are just words. It's truly such a great book with so many helpful techniques! Sending love, positive vibes and hugs your way! :)


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